It became a running joke on Facebook...this summer, Adam would inevitably fall asleep somewhere in the afternoon (usually on me!), and I'd take a picture with Photo Booth on my Mac. "Where was Adam going to fall asleep today?"People would laugh...say, "Man, I wish my kid could fall asleep anywhere!" I thought it was sweet, too. I got some extra cuddles with my little man.
And now I know different. It's not funny. It's not cute. He was falling asleep because he was sick.
I had no idea what was raging in his little body.
Oh man...I bet. I remember I got sad seeing pix of Joe pre-diagnosis when we got home from the hospital. I would cry when I would see them.
ReplyDeleteThose pictures are hard for me to look at too. Right after my two year old was diagnosed I sobbed over the photos of his pale face with red rimmed eyes. I wondered how I could have missed it. But then I read something great about seeing that we figured it out before, well before it caused real damage...I am thankful that you figured it out and hope you know you're not alone and your son will be just fine. Welcome to the wonderful online community of parents of children with diabetes...the loving group you never wanted to join but will be thankful that it's here for you.
ReplyDeleteIt's hard for me to look at the pics in the days leading up to dx. Thank goodness you have answers now....and a happy little boy to play all day instead of sleep.
ReplyDeleteHi Stephanie! I followed a link from Jen over at I Am Your Pancreas. I'm so sorry to hear about your son's dx. Hopefully he's already back to his old self, and putting weight back on. My daughter Grace was dx 1/23/09 when she was 7. I write a blog called Wicked Sweet, and I've found so much comfort and support from the D-OC (diabetes online community). I hope you find that too. Welcome to the club that no one wants to be in!
ReplyDeleteI have one of those pictures. Lily fell asleep in her Elmo chair with her Dora blanket and I posted it on Facebook, thinking it was just adorable. Within a couple of hours, we were in the ER with her. Big hugs, Stephanie! You did what you were meant to do in that situation. Gave him the physical and emotional comfort that only a mother's love can provide. And now that you know what's going on in his little body, you can do that job all that much better!
ReplyDeleteBut just think...YOU were his comfort when he wasn't well. That's still sweet. Obviously Adam loves his mama! :)
ReplyDeleteThis made me tear up! We have some VERY similar pics of Sugar Boy prior to dx. Same reason - we just didnt know.
ReplyDelete(((HUGS))) I sooo understand!
Oh I still can't go back to pictures right before dx. I took a picture of my 23 month old daughter sleeping next to her bed, but not all the way in it. I thought it was cute. Now that I know how sick she was, it horrifies me.
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Hi Stephanie... I came on over from Jen's blog and I'm so glad you've found some other D-Moms. These women are the BEST and have helped me keep my sanity over the last two years. My daughter Elise was dx at 12 months, just over two years ago. I blog over at www.deathofapancreas.com, although I've been a bit quiet lately... just had a baby last week!
ReplyDeleteLooking forward to getting to know you better and reading more about your family.
P.S. I can't believe everything your little guy (and you) have been through. What an incredible, strong woman you must be to have kept your sense of humour through it all. What an inspiration!
Hi Stephanie - I am Amanda and my little Emma was dx just after turning 4 on 4/30/10. I blog at ourextrasweetgirl.blogspot.com. Your little Adam is darling - good luck getting settled into the whole pancreas thing...it's a crazy ride but these women are amazing and always there when you need something!
ReplyDeleteI too am new to the diabetes thing. My daughter Ellie was just diagnosed Jan. 19th. I'm new to the blog world as well. I just ran into your blog and showed Ellie pictures of your son. She perked right up and said, "he has my diabetes too?!" I told her he did and she asked how old he was. I told her he was her age and she smiled so big. We spend a lot of time and energy trying to get her around other kids her age with diabetes...it's a boost for her to know she is not alone with this condition. Thanks for sharing your story and pictures. I wish you and yours well.
ReplyDeleteHi Stephanie! I found you through the wonderful Jen. So glad you found our little community! Best woman ever!! Those pictures can't help but touch our hearts. We have all seen the same thing in our own little ones. I have four boys, 3 are Type 1, and I look forward to getting to know you better. ((HUGS)) to you, and welcome to the D Mama blog circut!!
ReplyDeleteHi Stephanie! It's hard for me to look at the "before" pictures of my daughter too. She was dx just one month after her 3rd birthday, 17 months ago. I look forward to getting to know you!
ReplyDeleteJen is a great gal!
ReplyDeleteI am not a DMom, i am a type1 myself. I can't imagine what it's like to be in your position. You have found what will be the best support group in existence. I can assure you of that.
welcome, and I'm SORRY to see you here but we all get through it, one day at a time.
I think its awsome that you jumped right in to blogging. I waited about 10 months. It has been a lot better ride since then. D Mamas(and dads too) have been key to me keeping whats left of my sanity :)
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