I'm a bad blogger.
Probably because I don't want to acknowledge that we are getting Adam's pump on Friday.
Yes, I should be excited. But I'm scared.
The "attached" thing is getting to me. The tubes. Sleeping with it. Getting it pulled out.
And another little confession....
I cannot bear to read any more of Pumping Insulin. It is boring me to tears.
See? Horrible T1D mom.
I'm afraid that I don't know enough to figure out the pump. We've been flying by the seat of our pants the last few weeks and I feel like I'm just guessing at his insulin ratios these days. I'm not keeping track well.
I'm excited for the freedom. Nervous about the fact that he will have to wear yet another thing. We had a bad Dexcom site last week and I didn't put another one on until yesterday. It was kinda nice, living in ignorance.
But now that I know that I can use these tools to his advantage, I can't just ignore them.
So the countdown begins. Wish us luck.
You're an awesome blogger :)
ReplyDeleteThe jitters are normal! And don't worry....we're all flying by the seat of our pants!
You guys are going to totally ROCK IT! Can't wait to hear what's next!!!
Ditto to everything Wendy just said!
ReplyDeleteIt will be FINE. Don't we all fly by the seat of our pants? LOL!
Oh, and Pumping Insulin bored me too! I quit reading it prior to pumping and now just use it and Think Like a Pancreas on occasion. Not often though. :)
It will be OK!
Oh, yeah, totally flying by the seat of our pants here! Lily's basals are constantly changing. That's just the way it is with a teeny-tiny, pint-sized diabetic. And if it helps at all, Lily and I are both "attached" and I wouldn't have it any other way! You get used to it and it ends up being just another part of your body. I've been making Lily little backpacks to wear her pump in and it stays out of the way and never gets pulled out. You'll do just fine!
ReplyDeleteOh girl I was scared shitless! And it was hard wont lie the first few weeks but the DOC saved me! I did read both books and if you have any questions please ask! As crazy as it was now I cant imagine not pumping! Youll do great!! Keep us posted.
ReplyDeleteI wish you luck hon and the prayer that it will all be A-OK. Put down the book and jump in the water! Everything will be good and the DOC will be right here. Keep us posted how pump start goes...
ReplyDeleteI have been feeling the same way about the blogging. It has just been one of those "If you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all" kind of things. Everyone is all excited about the new year and I am just praying that it doesn't suck as bad as last year and I guess that just doesn't sound very nice! Ha! But I hope the pumping goes great! I can't wait to hear about it. I haven't even thought about Aiden starting to pump yet, but I have really been thinking about asking about a DexCom at our appointment in a few weeks. It just occurred to me at midnight on January 1 (no we weren't out partying,;) my alarm went off to do his midnight blood sugar, you know in bed by 9:30, cause that's how we roll) and I just had a horrible thought that his A1C was going to be like 10 or something because I haven't been covering for his meals because when I was following our sliding scale, he would crash based on the ratios our Endo had written. So now I have NO clue what his ratios are, at all and I worry because it seems like he is low half the time and slightly high half the time and rarely in range. So.... apparently I should have just made this my own blog post, because I am rambling on and on forever. But I guess all that to say... I hear ya girl and I totally sympathize with everything. Good luck with everything!! (((Hugs)))
ReplyDeleteGood luck Stephanie! It will be OK!!! I understand how you feel though ..I was a nervous wreck the day of our pump start ..heck the week leading up to it!!
ReplyDeleteThe first several months of the pump were very hard for us in some ways and a huge relief in others.BUT - Like Wendy said..we are ALL flying by the seat of our pants all the time! You will be surprised that once the pump is on and all set up..you won't even really notice it or the tubes all that much. It was my number one biggest mental hurdle to get over when we were about to start and I am still surprised to this day how much of a non issue the tubes and having something attached to Addison are. You will do great!! Keep us posted..
Well Stephanie...they all said it WAY, WAY, WAY better than I could have. We are all flying by the seat of our pants...I think that is why we are fuck nuts.
ReplyDeleteLove to you. I am looking forward to seeing how it unfolds for you. It may be rocky for a few weeks or so. Be prepared. Love you.
Yep, what they all said :-)
ReplyDeleteYou will do fine. And Bryce LOVES having something attached...says he feels like a robot and for a young boy that is obviously a good thing. Most of the time we don't even notice it.
Best of luck! You have lots of support here so no worries!
You are going to rock the pump! I know it is scary... thats why we put it off so long, but now I wish I would have started sooner. Its different, but in a good way.
ReplyDeleteChin up! Deep breath! Now go kick some pump a$$ :)
I'm writing a post just for you. There is another book that's a quick read and gives all the basics.
ReplyDeleteYou are going to be a pumping rock star!
Jitters are totally normal. So are the emotions that go along with the "attachment" to the pump. It will subside.
ReplyDeleteYou will love the pump though! Really you will, it's a lot of work at first, but once you are used to it, it is AMAZING!
Just like they all already said...You'll love it. I actually thought I was going to have to take a couple of weeks off work and was soooo scared of what that damn thing was going to do or say or whatever!!! It was totally a non-issue within hours of getting it! hahaha Keep your chin up, you know what you're doing! (oh hand no one finishes the book...it's just a good book to have around to refer to when you need it! I only made it 2/3rds of the way before my head was spinning and my mother made it through one chapter! HA! ) ((hugs))
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